you have got nothing to lose
if you think about it, at the end of the day there is nothing to lose. there is nothing like denial in life. if you are grinding and trying to be better you will eventually. you cant be denied of the version you are trying to become if are patient and persistent. the only thing that can happen is that your results might get delayed which eventually will make you quit before you reach the victory that you wouldve achieved but other than that you cant lose in lidfe (if you keep on pushing yourself and trying again again obv). winning is guaranteed to all those who try and never give up. remove the fear of "what if i lose my job", or "what if i dont make it big in life", that is something that is out of your hands anyways and yk what is in your hands - trying and grining. learn some new skills, level up, that is the only way forward.