you are the competition
never fear competition. never think as if you are falling behind, you are not. everyone is on their own clock and so are you. no one is ahead of you and no one is behind you. you are just competing with yourself.
there is no competition with others. the only competition that you have is you and only you.
"comparison is a thief of joy." you start comparing your life with the life of others and that is when shit explodes. for you to be sane, the last thing that you should do is to compare yourself with other. everyone is doing their stuff and so are you. relax, experience life, work hard, study harder but at the same time know that no one can take what is meant for you. its just a matter of time.
what is meant for you will reach even if it seems impossible right now
the state in which you are living and existing right now can literally get flipped within 6 months. you just need those 6 months when everything changes, no one knows when that time will arrive but all you can do is to be prepared for that. you see whatever is meant for us eventually reaches us. but what is meant for us? if you think deeply about it, whatever we wish to become in life and the efforts we put in to be that person who has all those things achieved is "everything that is meant" for us. you create your own reality. your thoughts, your efforts, the things you manifest eventually turn out to be the things that are meant for you and since you grind day in and day out to achieve those things you are basically turning yourself into someone who will be ready when the right time arrives with the right oppurtunity.
and for all the above to happen you have to kinda let go of the fear of competition, the jealousy, the desire to be best than other. work on yourself, try to better than what you were yesterday, do something that an average regular version of you would never do. maybe start a blog. let the world know what you are up to. it all starts from something small and eventually you become that person that you thought was your ideal version of you. you get those oppurtunities, the blessings that you once used to pray for.
relax and enjoy the journey